If I say that I do not feel envious of their own, but, I lied, I ask myself whether I feel envious of them, the more it is not. Because of my life, it is quite different with them.
If I say I do not envy them, I was lying to myself. But I ask myself, how I envy them very much, it was not much. Because my life is quite different with them.
If I say I don't feel jealous of them, I lie to myself. But I ask myself how I feel envy them very much, it's not so much. Because my life is quite different with them!