First, I read your message. I understand that you will never talk to me again. I was shocked enough to translate it it understandable that you told me, it freed me think you are lost.
When I first read your messages, I understand that you will not talk to me again, I was shocked again when I was told I was relieved to understand you, I think you are missing.
When I first read your message, I understand that you can't talk to me again, I was shocked when translated again, I understand you said. I was relieved. I think you will disappear.